after 3am
January 12, 2012
barely a week into the new semester, I have managed to break the 3am barrier.
late nights bring a candidness, a truthfulness if you will to my thoughts.
my dreams are under siege. a b- from com201 haunts my second major chances in communication studies. I wonder aloud if I will be allowed a second chance to redeem myself.
the singaporean education system is not known for its kindness nor its capacity for second chances.
sometimes, it seems that the only way to recover from such a slight is vengeance. vengeance in the form that you return to the place where you were slighted, having achieved greater things than the best of their school had to offer.
but such actions are useless. it is immature to think that it will even out any scores. at best, it only serves to slay the inner-demons of inferiority that reside within our very human hearts. and even then, it doesn’t resolve the fundamental issues within our result-driven society.
we pursue recognition like a mindless slave, chasing obscure statutory boards for certification that often impede instead of improve work flows.
and yet, some part of me knows that this is a rant against the fact that my dreams are about to be dashed against the rocks of reality simply because of a lousy grade point.
22 years into existence, and still, i am bent over by the grade-centric system that my society has.
sigh.
