its been awhile, hasn’t it? to feel alive, to feel Dream’s drive, to taste the bitterness of Defeat, to know of Hope’s endless strength.
i’ve not been properly alive for years. and to suddenly find it back – it’s pretty amazing. and i am truly thankful. grateful beyond measures for all the good that people have given to me, even if they didn’t quite know it.
over my years in the university, i’ve managed a strange affinity with the campus newspaper. The Nanyang Chronicle runs once every three weeks during the semester – we produce ten issues annually. It is not a great number by any means, but, it is the one thing that has consistently given me hope for the past three years. I am touched and humbled by the immense dedication and energy that each editorial team brings to the paper. this year may yet become one of the special ones. working with year 4s in a newsroom has been nothing short of amazing. functioning in the managing editor’s capacity has given me the chance to observe the higher-order decision making processes within a newsroom – as well as learn from the new editors operating within their various fields.
it’s one of the stranger relationships that i have developed in university – that of the newsroom and i. i am somewhat convinced that it is the ‘can-do’ energy which the editors bring into the newsroom that really draws me back year after year. it is a strange camaraderie – to know that there are people around you working with you, together, to accomplish a greater goal. it is this gathering of like-minded individuals that have truly bonded me to the newsroom – even my news credentials are questionable.
looking back to just a year ago, i am also surprised how much i’ve changed. i remember last year this time, i was going through one of the most difficult times in my adult life. every aspect of my being was challenged – i didn’t really know who i was, and what was it that i stood for.
fast forward till today, i seem to have found myself – however briefly it is. the people around me inspire me to outdo and challenge myself. the pressure is still there – only that now, it comes from within and not external factors. friends and colleagues around me inspire me to become a better person daily. it might very well be the kindness in the people around me – it gives me the strength to challenge myself and break through previous limits.
i thank you, the chroniclers, for giving a tired old man like me, the will to continue believing and dreaming. i thank the many individuals and characters that i’ve met this semester, that have stood by me against the trials and tribulations of life, that disregarded conventionality and pushed to be better than you can be.
and perhaps most importantly, thank you for accepting me.